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[emmazunz]

we were curling around each other on a park bench yesterday afternoon,
and everywhere around us children giggled and rode their bicycles and didn't give any thought to the two teen-agers whose hands were stained with orange buffalo sauce,
and i felt like ten years had gone by and i didn't even know

and he said,
i'm going to miss you.
and i said,
i know. i'm going to miss you so much. i'm not thinking about it.
and i said,
i won't be able to talk to you at all when i'm in bulgaria
and he said,
how long is that?
and i said,
ten days
and he said,
that's not so long. i lived eighteen years without talking to you.
and i said,
that's true. so did i.
and he said,
and anyway, you always say those were the happiest years of your life
and he sounded almost sad

and i realized,
that was true
and then i thought:
maybe i was happy and i didn't even know


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i miss my steve maddens.
they are at at home, and i think i need new ones.
i never remember the summer.